Hello fellow sojourners! It is truly a privilege and pleasure to be able to fellowship with you, to mark this place on our journey together. In the days of our forefathers, they would build altars at the places that God had revealed himself or delivered them from an enemy. I think this is a wonderful practice and I do hope that the God of hope will fill you with joy and peace as you trust in Him (Romans 15:13). I believe He is with us through these words on your screen. He himself gives life and breath and everything else (Acts 17:25b), so let’s build altars to the One True God as we travel these roads together.
Let me introduce myself to you. I am the newest part of Share His Peace. My name is Maggie and I am a humbled, grateful believer and servant to my LORD Jesus Christ. He is restoring me from the addiction of approval seeking and feeling needed by others, from unforgiveness and the idolatry of food. I have been tampering with how I introduce myself in recovery lately because there is power in the words that I speak. I am not powerless over how I think about myself or what I proclaim. Yvette and I just had this conversation a couple weeks ago, and she affirmed in me that even this can be a stronghold in my life.
I am married to an incredible man of God and we are blessed to have seven children together. Six of those kids are adults and the seventh is 12 years old. We are also proud grandparents to 7, soon to be 8, beautiful grandchildren. We recently relocated to wonderful Johnston County, NC from Westchester County, New York. I turned 50 in 2017- It is still my year of jubilee! God is so good, and I will forever praise His great name for all the grace, mercy and love He pours out on me daily.
I am so excited to have a conversation about recovery! If you know me, I mean really know me, you know that I am passionate about Celebrate Recovery (CR). I have actually been a part of this incredible program for 10 years now. My whole life perspective has changed because of the steps and principles of this program that offers healing to anyone who recognizes that life is hard and sometimes cruel, and we cannot just skip past those moments in our life. More than likely it is one of these moments that we began to change how we think and believe. Some people would even accuse me of being a little over zealous about recovery and how this resource has something to offer EVERYONE!!
I use the word resource, but “What are we resourcing?” you ask. What a great question! In a word-JESUS!
I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt the first time I stepped foot into a CR meeting that I was home. Oh, what a relief it was when I allowed myself to trust God enough to take my mask off in front of these strangers. I was entirely ready for God to remove the things from me that made me feel so unworthy, unlovable, and defective; however, this was also a horribly scary (vulnerable) place to be. What would become of me? My identity had become so wrapped up in these “places” marked by pain that I wasn’t entirely comfortable with ripping off the bandages.
But, did I want to be well? Before any of us experiences healing we must decide, do we want to be made well?
I can be my biggest enemy, I don’t like to be uncomfortable. Change is uncomfortable, bondage is familiar, our struggles can become our identity.
I had such a difficult time seeing past what seemed impossible. But God… He isn’t familiar with impossible. He has not created me for these things. Yes, He has allowed my heart to be devastated, but only so He could purchase it back and break down the faulty belief system I was anchored to and recreate a heart designed to love and serve Him. I need to submit to the process and allow the redemptive love that purchased me back, hover over me and restore me, just as He hovered over the formless, empty earth when darkness was over the surface (Genesis 1:2). My pain had finally become greater than my fear, and I called out to the God of mercy. These are the moments when God spoke into the chaos and created order! Hallelujah!
Can anyone else identify the moment in your life when God put in order what seemed so formless and chaotic?
Let’s meet back here on Friday, and I will tell you how God has pursued me across the miles and with a grace that astounds me. He wants me to give Him my whole heart; He wants that from you my friend as well. I pray that you will let Him into those places in your heart that feel too broken to ever be healed. God has a purpose for our pain. Come back at the week’s end and let’s be ready to praise Him for how faithful He is.