Rest is a topic that God has been whispering to me about for many years now, approximately four to be exact. Please don’t ask how I can be approximate and exact at the same time.
I remember when my journey of discovery towards this concept began. I was standing in my kitchen, pregnant with our last child (this is where the approximate comes in). I can still feel the moment though. It’s one of those God encounters that gets sketched in your mind’s eye (here’s where the exact comes in).
I was standing facing the stove and feeling completely overwhelmed for quite a few number of reasons. Life was challenging at that time. Who am I kidding? Life is challenging at every moment, or so it seems.
As I started on my usual rant to God, I heard him whisper REST. Remember that moment in scripture when Jacob wakes up from a dream at Bethel? He thinks, “Surely the Lord is in this place, and I was not aware of it.” (Genesis 28:16) That’s the kind of sentiments I had as I heard the word REST. Actually it was more like, “Wait, what? Did you just say something? That doesn’t really make sense God. What do you mean REST? You know I’m pregnant right? I’m homeschooling these four other children? I’m…..”
No matter what my excuse, God’s answer was firm.
That, friends, was the beginning of an approximately four year long struggle with the topic of rest.
To date, I’d say I have a love hate relationship with resting. I love the idea of rest. My body yearns for the reality of rest. I hate the bullet points left un-crossed on my to do list when I choose to rest. I hate the guilt I feel when I fall to my couch in exhaustion and ask others to help with chores around the house.
Stephanie, Jamie, Yvette, and Maggie all did such a great job sharing some of my convictions about rest. I don’t want to rehash any of that.
Instead, I want you to know that rest, though it’s a topic I am fully convinced is crucial to a healthy life (emotionally, physically, and spiritually), is also a topic which causes me great turmoil. I struggle to find balance as I seek to live from a place of rest in a culture that thrives on business and performance.
Maybe you struggle too?
If you’ll join me again on Friday, I’m looking forward to sharing a book review with you, two actually. I’ve been reading a great book called 24/6 by Matthew Sleeth, MD. I’ll share some of the ways this book has contributed to my journey of discovery about rest. Want to know what the second book is? You’ll have to stop back by on Friday to find out! See you then!