Good morning and welcome back to our Faithful Friday post at ShareHispeace.com.
I (Maggie) am so grateful you are here. I don’t take it for granted, and am not naive to the fact that you made a choice to click and open this email and/or blog post. Thank you for trusting that God has ordained this moment. I promise to share Him with you and I pray you finish this excerpt with more hope than when you started.
I mentioned in my Monday Mayhem some confusion with how to let God’s word infuse power into my life and circumstances. I have to confess that perhaps I was just being way too hard on myself. I am not saying that I have already arrived; I too will always be a work in progress, but I think what I haven’t seen in myself lately is a deep desire to grow and change and always be better than the day before.
It didn’t take long after starting my journey with the LORD, to head into the valley. I have had many experiences that I can tell you about with great detail, but what I wanted you to know most of all is, God went into the valley with me. As I crawled about wrestling with my control and clinging to His hope, I knew He was there.
On this same journey, have been many mountaintop experiences. God has inhabited my praise and left me in awe, speechless of His goodness, certain that He would never leave me and that I cannot outrun Him.
There are such parallel emotions of grief and joy. Life has taught me that you cannot know one without being familiar with the other. They are so close sometimes that seeing the line that separates them is just not possible from a human perspective.
As I have really been digging into this topic about life verses, I came across my old journal pages. Just one cluster of pages contains so many heartfelt prayers of declaration and revelation.
I was moved as I read the words from another place and time. I spoke passionately about the love of God. As I remember the years past, the long history I have with Jehovah Jireh, El Shaddai, Yahweh, I remember that never once has He left me or forsaken me, although often I have fled from Him. BUT GOD instantly receives me back as soon as I call on Him and confess both my sin and my need; He is a good God.
I am not minimizing the benefit of trying to find different verses from God’s word that will aide you in difficult times. I know that God’s word is alive and sharper than any two edged sword. I have laid still in the operating room as He cut away from me the bitterness that had traveled to every part of my being.
I have seen proof that His Word will never return empty , as I prayed for years for both my father-in-law, Pete and sister-in-law, Rose, as well as other friends and family. Prayers for their need for Jesus and other burdens as well. There were times that I didn’t even think I could pray any longer, but His Spirit was controlling the greater part of me.
These words, which I am commanding you today, shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your sons and shall talk of them when you sit in your house and when you walk by the way and when you lie down and when you rise up….then watch yourself, that you do not forget the Lord who brought you from the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery. (Deuteronomy 6:6-7, 12, English Standard Version)
This is my life purpose, for as long as I live I want to glorify His Name. I want to worship and honor Him and bestow all the dignity and praise I have in Him alone.
So often I get stuck, overwhelmed by my circumstances, and I forget all that the LORD has done for me. In my prayer closet, God says, “Remember to remember.”
I have struggled relentlessly with control and now I want to surrender all to Him.
I have struggled with my past, but He has redeemed me and I am no longer a slave to fear, but I will be His messenger of a grace that pursues me no matter what.
I have struggled with an addiction…this too I surrender, that I would have no other gods before Him.
The latest burden has been to repair the damage I have done by controlling my emotions and feelings for most of my life. I have prayed that God would help me once again make a connection to what I feel as I am experiencing it, good or bad.
He is faithful. Faithful in our storms…
When I hear of another’s pain and struggle, I want to point them to Him. To a Cross that Jesus stayed on until Love covered our sin. Broken for my peace, joy, hope.
I believe that even if I don’t see any answers to what I bring to God today, I will be back tomorrow. I will bring my warrior spirit and pray without giving up. Evidence from my past shows me that God is on the throne and He hears me and sees me and is the lifter of my head.
1 Peter 5:6-10 have become the verses that the LORD keeps placing before me and using to remind me once again that He is a God who answers prayers and keeps His promises:
Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. But resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same experiences of suffering are being accomplished by your brethren who are in the world. After you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you. (ESV; emphasis mine)
He himself is restoring me. He himself is making me strong, He is always steadfast.
I remember now that He owns everything that once owned me.
Father, I see how Your fierce love has continued to pursue me. I know I don’t deserve it, but you never give up on me. Let us smash all the idols that we put before you. Help us to surrender all our insufficiencies to You so that you can replace them with your power, humbleness, meekness, grace, wisdom,love and strength. We trust You to make good on Your promises to us. Your grace always gives way to more grace. Help us to keep drawing closer to you as we allow your Word to infiltrate our hearts. We Love you and adore you…be glorified today.